I work very hard to keep the dark clouds at bay, but some days I work to hard and am I am exhausted. Today is one of those days. there are blue skies outside and a warm breeze blowing but I want to go back to bed and sleep the day away. Nothing is working out the way that I wanted it to, and rarely are things going the way that I planned. I need help but don’t know where to turn. Do I have the money to hire someone to fix things in my house when he won’t do it? No but then they never get done and things just make me more blue. Pretty soon I’m going to turn into a Smurf.
It’s hard to believe that it’s been a year since my last post. A lot of things have happened since then. Halley passed away and I got a new puppy. I’ve taken a break from school recently because I just can’t seem to focus. I have been trying very hard to keeps things together but it’s getting to be harder and harder. I need to slow things down and think things through but it’s been very difficult.
There are just to many things going on in my life for me to slow down. There are days when I feel like a shark, if I stop what I am doing I will die. (not the other way where I am a cold blooded animal). I just need to find the time and organize my days better so that I can get everything into the boxes where they belong and I can keep everything neat. That’s what I need.