“Go ahead and throw money at the vet”

“Go ahead and throw money at the vet”

That’s what he said to me when I told him that I wanted to make an appointment for Halley. As many of you know Halley is my other baby, my 10-year-old English Pointer and I love her. This past winter  she develop cysts, They are not painful to her as far I can tell, but they are unsightly and something has to be done about them. I recently received some extra money and want to get these things taken care of for her. I want to buy some clothes for me. I want to get the cable turned on. There are so many things that I would like to do but I feel so guilty if I took care of me before trying to take care of her. How can I? Isn’t that morally wrong? Selfish even.

This ethic’s class has brought up a lot of things in my life but right now the main thing that is bothering me is that I want to buy stuff for me, to take care of me for once but then I look at Halley and I can’t. She has lost weight but is still eating. She wants to play and is still active. How can I say that I don’t have the money to pay for her surgery but I can afford to get my hair and nails done, buy a bunch of clothes for me?

I understand that he wants me to save the money for important things, like paying bills at the house but this is my money and that is what I want to do with it. But some might say that this is border line animal abuse. True she is not in pain, but the simple sight of them is painful. His words,  when I told him that I was planning to take care of this is “If you want to throw your money at the vet, go ahead”. That is just painful. He might as well have said that he idn’t care about her. I’m hoping that he didn’t mean it the way that it came out but that’s how it came out. My heart hurt so much when he said that. That’s my baby, how can I not take care of her? If taking care of her means that I don’t get the football package this year then so be it. I am not going to let this go on any longer.

Christmas joy?

I was hit with bad news the day before Christmas. This is supposed to be a season of change and love and spending time with your friends. That is the case but I am not feeling the love right now. At least not towards the family. The bad news that i got is that my dog Halley, who  is 9 yr old, has cancer.

I took her in to the vet because a big cyst on her right foreleg had burst and was bleeding really bad. I knew that her surgery would take a  lot out of me but I was not ready for the whole day to be a flop. To many emergencies came in that day. i brought Halley home and let her eat and relax with us before taking her backed the next morning. they called me later that day to say that her surgery was still ongoing and that there was a lot of growth on the cyst they were cutting off and that they thought it would be a good idea if we sent it out to see what it is/was. There were a few other things that they wanted to do but i wasn’t financially in a place to do anything more than what we had planned for. I also had x-rays done so we could get a better look at what is going on in her body.

Well i was told that it’s a good thing we sent the cyst out because it is cancerous. i don’t remember the name that they told me but it’s a blood origin cancer, meaning that it’s in the blood, so more than likely it’s all over her body by now. i don’t know how long she has or anything like that but i have to take her in tomorrow to get her sutures removed so i will get more information then. The doctor that told me this didn’t really want to tell me, I could hear it in his voice. He sounded genuinely sad that he had to say it to someone, especially on Christmas Eve.

I want to thank the people who work at the vet’s office for what they have done so far for Halley and what they will do for her. I am going to enjoy the time that I have with her, even though I don’t know how long that will be. Enjoy your time with your family and be safe this holiday season.


Sunday mornings

Well this Sunday morning has not been like others. The last couple of weeks since I have started Atkins, Sundays morning has been my morning to walk down to the studio and water the plants with Halley of course and then come home and make breakfast since he’s usually on his way out the door to go play golf. Well Halley had to have surgery (again) and I thought she might still be a little sore today. So instead of sleeping in for an hour and getting some more rest I was awaken by the sounds of Halley whining and whimpering in the living room. I thought that maybe she in pain and needed some attention but she was on the couch curled up and having a bad dream. Poor baby.

But it’s football season and I am off to watch some games and do some shopping.

I’m still shaking

Forgive me if my writing is a little off my hands are still shaking.

On the days that I don’t work I like to drop Savie off at school and take Halley for a walk, especially now that she has a bike. So this morning was just another morning,only that Halley got a bath before we left. Dropped Savie at school and then went on to K’s house to help her with one of her dogs. After that we walked back, passing the same houses since we were going to pick up Savie and come home. Well we passed this one house that has a cute little pug of a dog but instead of just standing at the front gate barking at us like it did before it ran for the side gate and out into the street where it went after Halley and Halley went after it. I screamed and yelled for her to “drop it, give”  everything. Finally the lady comes running out of the house screaming at me “I won’t call the police if you just let go of my dog”. I finally got Halley to let loose of the dog, after getting bit a couple of times myself, and the dog ran a little ways away and then barked some more.

I am so shaken up. I can’t believe Halley did this. I had to call K to come get us because I didn’t think i could make the walk home. I’m mad at Halley and a little upset with the lady. I wasn’t telling Halley to go after the dog, egging her on or anything but telling me something like that didn’t help the situation at all.

Please send me some calming vibes, good thoughts, and the like. I have to go take a shower, clean my hand and calm down.

Sum up Saturday

This week has been a great week. The weather has been nice, school was great and evn this morning at the Farmer’s Market was good.

Last week wasn’t so hot. One of my kids, B, fell hard and scarped his face up really good. We were on our way to the park to get some leaves and pine cones for an art project and had only made it around the corner when one of the other kids had to stop because she walked out of her shoes. B walked around us, took a couple more steps and then fell face first onto the cement. I almost cried,  it was just so bloody. He nose, two places on his cheek, and his lip was spilt. I felt so bad. His mom was OK with it, at least she was while she was at school but who knows what she did when they were in the car or at home. But they did come back the next day.

But back to this week. There were no problems all week long. Savie and I did our usual stuff on the two days off we had, did a little shopping, hung out at the house, stuff like that. We didn’t stay for class on Tues I don’t remember why but then Thursday we did. But that’s OK after making several batches of applesauce I was a little tired.

This morning rolled around and it was off to the Farmer’s Market. I love the fact that it has been extended until the middle of next month. Usually it ends at the end of October but there was a demand, and a lot of crops going to waste, so they extended, yeah! Anyways since Savie has her bike she wants to ride it all the time. So we loaded up the bike and drove down to the park. (Before you ask why didn’t we just ride down there it’s because we live at the top of a hill and had other things to do afterwards). She was so cute. I really wish I had taken some pictures. She’s getting better every day that she’s on it. She rode all around the market, then up the street to school and back. She was almost to fast for me on the way back,lol.After that it was time to head up to ‘Ol Bisbee and the library. Returned a few books, got some new ones and then got coffee. Made a quick stop at the Co-op to grab a few things and then home to watch the Boise State game. (GO BIG BLUE!) Poor baby fell asleep before the game even started. I had a feeling that would be the case.

All in all it was a great day and now she is asleep in bed after a small dinner and a short shower with Halley. They are so cute.

my other baby

I have two babies but I only gave birth to one of them. My other child is my 8 yr old English pointer, Halley. I got her when she was 18 months old from my boyfriend at the time. She has been such a great dog. I don’t know what I would do without her.

When I was pregnant we were worried about her and our other dog, Jess. How they would react to the baby, would they fight over the baby, nip, etc. My biggest concern was Jess, he was never good with people to begin with so a baby would be a real big concern. When I went into labor both dogs were in bed with me and pushed at almost every contraction. They were really good about that. I loved them for that. I tried to do like the books tell you and have hubby bring home a blanket that smelled like my daughter for the dogs to smell but we just forgot about it. But I did go in the house before he brought her in so I could see my baby. Both of them were really good when she first came home. Halley didn’t go in her room but Jess did, that was something that we really had to work on with him.

Savie was always in a bouncer or her swing while I cleaned and the dogs were always wanting in and out. I just knew it was a matter of time before Savie got hit with Halley’s tail. We were counting the days. But it never happened. Halley would walk by the swing and her tail would stop.