at least that is the answer I give the kids at school. They have started to ask me how I am and my answer……” I’m older than you”.I should go to bed.
I have been a little distracted with the move and trying to figure out what I what changed at the studio that I completely forgot that this Monday is Chinese New Year. I have to thing of something quick for the kids to make tomorrow. And something that we have. Not quite a great start to school right?
I am so ready for the weekend, much like the song. I don’t want to get up in the morning, at 5:30, to be there by 7:30. I have one kid who will be there at 7:30 for sure but the rest will be there after that. I just need to make sure to get myself out of the door by 7:20. That will be the hard part.
I hope was hoping that with today being the day that it is and yesterday was MLK Day that I would be in a better place, both in my mind and at the school but I was cleaning yesterday and now I only have to two kids, one of which is my own! Not actually uplifting. But things will get better right?
I am starting to find some things really funny. I know that doesn’t make a lot of sense at the moment but it will when I explain what I am talking about.
I am working with another teacher to get a program together for the adult dance classes. Like I have already explained in this post hw is just here for the adult classes not for the kids. Well S had asked me about a week ago, when we had worked together for about 3 nights so far, how I felt about going on a diet. Not for appearance reasons but mainly because it would make it eaiser for me to do the moves if I don’t have a lot of extra weight. The way that he said wasn’t offense at all but afterwards when I was in the car onmy way home I started laughing. If that had been said to me when I was in my 20’s I would have started crying, just bawling my eyes out over that.
In my 20’s I was not comfortable with myself so for anyone to say something like that to me hurt so much. A dentist told me something about my teeth and made some remark about me “being so pretty” and “what a shame it would be” blahblah blah. I started crying, all because he gave me a complement (kinda) and I was not comfortable with it. It’s a little sad when I look back at it now. I wish had been more secure in my body but for so many years all I heard was that I wasn’t skinny like my sister or smart like my other sister. Stuff like that.
But now I am in my 30’s, true I am only 32 but still that counts, I can deal with what is said about me. I will never be my sisters and tht is just something I have come to terms with. I am my own person and that is that.
I was hoping that I would not have to post about K anymore but that is not to be the case. She has called me twice in the past 3 days and every time it was just to talk about nothing. I understand that she is going thru a lot of things and all but I don’t want to hear about it. She didnt call when she was on the road to let me know that she was ok and I am now working full time so I don’t have the time to do that. I have to put another ring on my phone so I know when she calls because I am not talking to her. If she doesn’t get the hint oh well.
Today was not quite what I had planned. I thought that by the time I was ready to go down to the studio and clean some and figure out what I needed to get now that she is gone. But the thing is that she wasn’t gone. She called me this morning and told me that she had a rough night and has been sick. I knew that she was going to be leaving a mess behind but when I got there this afternoon it was a little worse then I thought it waould be. It’s going to be a long week.